RJ Rambles about being tired

Hey guys! 

Late ramblings today, because I've just been exhausted and slower about doing just about everything. 

I think I've mentioned here already that I got a personal trainer a couple of weeks ago. We meet twice a week and she WEARS ME OUT. But dang, I feel good afterwards. Like, I know that I'm building muscle and losing weight and it makes me feel stronger and more hot and more badass than I've ever felt. So, I feel really good about myself right now. 

The downside is that it takes about an hour and a half out of my day, and then on days like today, sometimes I get REALLY tired afterwards and it takes me a while to recover. I barely did any work before the workout today, and then after the workout, I passed out in my chair for a bit. When I finally got to the computer to start working, I've been a bit slower than usual. Which is a big reason why this update is going slower than I expected. I've just been very tired. 

Aside from the twice a week workout, she wants me to do at least twenty minutes of cardio every day. So, I'm trying to fit that in as well, whether that be going on a hike (which I love to do), or riding my bike at home, or doing some sort of aerobic workout, or going to the gym and running on the treadmill or something. So, I'm trying to fit that in as well. 

There's just so many things to fit in, and never enough time and energy to do everything. I'm working on it though. Balance is important, and over the last couple years, my balance has been leaning very heavily into the work. Now I'm leaning a little more into my self, but eventually I'll find some place in the middle, where everything fits perfectly. Or at least close to perfectly, I hope. 

Over the weekend, we celebrated my wife's birthday. Her family came down and we went to the mall and everything. I was able to control my anxiety for MOST of the time at the mall, but I did have to duck out a little early after having a bit of a panic attack. I'm still not good with being around that many people for that long. But I'm getting a little better than I was even just a few months ago.

Other than that stuff, and the normal housework and working on the game and dealing with the pets and the family and stuff, I've been playing Persona 3: Reload and loving it.

And that's about all I've been up to. I'm happy, tired, and trying to balance all of the plates that I have to keep spinning. I really could use another person to help on the game at this point, but I haven't found anybody who fits that role quite yet. 

Hope you all are doing good and have a great week! Love ya!